“Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts.” – Psalm 139:23
God knows every part of us. He knows our thoughts, our hearts, and our whole being. He knows our motives and the “why” behind our every action.
The underlying theme to this is that God created us, he knows us, and he searches us. We may not always want God to know every part of our hearts (I know I sometimes don’t), but it’s a beautiful thing when the God that created us truly knows us, even the things we’re not proud of.
When God searches us, he reveals to us the parts of our mind that we don’t always want dug up. But when we confront the things that God wants shown to us, we get the opportunity to become more like him.
When we pray, we should be asking God to show us our convictions and reveal to us the areas in our lives that could use a little work. For you, it may be patience, jealousy, alcohol, etc., simply anything that doesn’t reflect that of a follower of Christ. Your struggles may seem smaller or bigger than others, but in God’s eyes, they’re all the same.
Psalm 139:13-14 says, “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
When we ask God to search our hearts, he already knows what’s in them. He knit us together the day we were created, making no mistakes or accidents.
Think of yourself as a house. There are several different rooms filled with several different things. Some rooms you don’t mind showing to people because they’re clean, put-together, and presentable. But then there are the rooms that you don’t want people to see, even God. You keep the door locked so no one can see what’s behind it.
We all have the rooms that we’re not proud of. Whether those rooms are filled with your past, your thoughts, your shameful actions, etc., it’s the rooms you don’t want anyone else to see regardless.
But once we open these rooms to God, we allow ourselves to be vulnerable and fully transparent with him. It’s an intimate thing when we put everything out on the table and share with God even the things we don’t want to.
Although God already knows our deepest thoughts, it’s completely different when we invite him in and willingly share the things we’ve been hiding from him.
I encourage you to ask God to search your locked rooms. Ask him to help you with the things you struggle with and to forgive you for the things you’ve been hiding. No matter how bad you think these things are, God will always forgive you and love you just the same.
Pray for God to search you and reveal these things to you! He uses our weaknesses to work in our lives and turn them into strengths! 🙂